It’s not just about me.  It’s not just about me.  For the past week I’ve focused on praying primarily for others, the fourth element under Prayer in our Rule of Life.  Why?  Too often, I pray for myself:  What do I want? What do I need? How am I feeling? I, I, I . . . As much as I try to resist, I fall into the trap of individualism that captures many in our culture.  I need daily reminders that the world does not orbit around me. I orbit with the world around something much bigger than all of us combined.  Self is important.  God loves each one of us individually but not just individually.  God loves us in community.  Too often, my prayer life does not reflect this truth.  I became keenly aware of this when my friend, mentor, and senior pastor at North Church, where I also serve in ministry, announced that he is taking a new position as the president of the Methodist Hospital Foundation.  I was happy for him but disappointed and heart-broken.  I would no longer be working on a daily basis with one of my favorite people.  My complaints to God sounded like the best laments from the Psalms . . . why now, God?  We were just getting started with some exciting plans.  I’ve only been at North for six months, could this timing be any worse?  Now I have to start all over with another senior pastor.  After a day or two of feeling sorry for myself, I finally woke to the fact that this was not about me.  Duh.  It was ok to express feelings of loss and frustration and even some anger but not without giving thanks for Kevin in his new role in ministry and for the Methodist Hospital Foundation’s ministry to the broader community.  My personal loss at North is the Indianapolis community’s gain.  It’s not just about me.  It’s not just about me.

 


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